December 30, 1991

Charlies entry on this date is all about why he gets so upset on his birthday every year. Why he had to go see a doctor and was kept out of school for a very long time, and why he hates the holidays every year and can't wait for them to be over. His Aunt Helen moved in with his family after she had left an abusive relationship and was sober for a good amount of time. She was the only other person not in his immediate family that bought him two presents, one for his birthday and one for Christmas. He was born on Christmas Eve. Charlie loved his Aunt Helen more then anyone in the family did. The last thing she said to him was that she was going to buy his birthday present, the morning of his birthday. She had gotten into a bad car accident and died that day. Charlie can't deal with the pain every year thinking that it was his fault. This entry was extremely sad to read. Especially the part where he blames himself for her death because that is a very common thing and no one should ever feel that way.